last night was the best night...
I feel so happy when he sang a song of "Sempurna" to make me sleep.
I like to hear his voice and always miss it...hihihihi
And when he sang it, my heart filled with happiness and then I couldn't control my feeling because I was very touched and then I said" Aku sayang kamu" and he asked me to say it again and again...
and i did it...hihihihhihi
and he said same like I said...
and I give my **** from far to him

oh no I never do that before!
I do not know what happened and how I feel right now. I feel happy and scare at the same time.

actually, I was never like this with the past men. I never say what I feel and always try to cover it up because my prestige is too high.
But now, for some reason I want to say and if I didn’t do it, I feel “something wrong” in my heart.
It makes me scared ...
Afraid of my feelings that more and more to grow up, whereas this relationship is still uncertain.
We do not know exactly what will happen next.
Many things can make this relationship will continue or not.
I never meet him before and right now we are in touch only by air.

And what will be happen when we meet later?
I do not know if he’ll still want to continue this relationship with me or slowly disappear to avoid me.
I'm still not ready to face all the consequences that will happen.
Therefore, I am afraid of my happiness.
Is this happiness will only make me in love deeply with him and It means I have opened a “celah” in my heart to be hurt again without I realize???
I do not know and not sure, he will accept me “apa adanya” and he wiill not feel disappointed after meet me.
what should I do???
happy? afraid? or others?
my friend told me to enjoy this relation but this is bout feeling each other, not bout something like show, trip, or something like that, that i just enjoy it.
oh no...I'm so confuse with my uncertain relation!
I am afraid I will love him and give my heart!!!